I'm trying to look up and stay positive, honestly, I am. I have put myself out into the workforce as a beginning of my independence only to find that it's tough work, minimum wage and it leaves me wondering how I am ever going to make it on my own. My first day of work arrived and the confident image I had of myself portrayed in my mind completely vanished as those self doubts flooded in and left me feeling like a five year old walking into the classroom for the first time. I have met several, wonderful women and when I told them of my fears they admitted to having their own which helped me relax.
I know I have to start somewhere in the job field and that this is just a baby step for me but my soul is telling me I just need to jump in with both feet and live a "creative" life. I feel as though I have been struggling for breath for years and that I need to break through the surface of everything that rules me and draw in deep, wonderful breaths of life giving oxygen. The key thing is that to do that I will need to find some courage.
"Some have thousands of reasons why they cannot do what they want to, when all they need is one reason why they can". Willlis R. Whitney
For the time being, I guess I have a lot more soul searching and decisions to make, but in the meantime I'll stay where I'm at and hope things start to look up.
